Esteban

I called Sherry early today after her college classes to make sure that she will prepare herself and be early at the house tonight and to let her know that I’m having a big important party tonight.

I was always strict about not allowing her to come to my parties. She thought that I was worried about her attitudes and about my business deals or whatever.

She never knew that truth that I have been hiding even from myself for all those years of living for her and with her.

I practically raised her since she was only twelve years old. When our parents died early leaving only me and my sister Sherry on our own. I played with her. I dressed her, I helped her to take her shower. I have seen her body growing up in front of my eyes year by year.

I didn’t struggle a lot with my life. We were kind of rich and I was twenty-two years old and just graduated from college. I did have the knowledge and the degree and much more, which was a few companies that I inherited from my father.

Yes, we were rich but that doesn’t mean that I didn't work hard. Someone at an early age and his parents died early, she wouldn’t take care of his young sister. He would just spend his money over a girl and be hanging out.

But no, it wasn’t me at all. I took all the responsibility and I took care of my little sister and watched her with all of my heart. I protected her. I helped her in her studies even though I was too busy taking care of my father's companies. It was a huge responsibility on my shoulders I admit it. And I was struggling and tired.

But I was too careful to not make Sherry feel lonely. And I was so worried about her being with bad friends or bad guys.

Sooner the responsibilities became massive but with the years and my experience I became more powerful and I succeeded. I even became wealthier and spread our companies wider all over the world.

I couldn’t even know how much I do own the money. My bank accounts are filled with billions.

But even so, the little girl took all over my mind and my heart.

Yes, once Sherry started to become a teenager and her body and her attitude started to be weirdly different, once I figured out that I was falling hard in love with her.

It was true feelings, deep and strong. Year by year I was getting surer from my feelings that it was impossible to be neglected or denied.

I prevented myself, I closed my heart doors. I did my best to be only her older brother.

But I can’t deny that was too hard and tough on me. It wasn’t easy to fall in love more and more with your little sister. She was already everything to me. She was the eyes that I could see by. She was blood that gives my heart the ability to beat. She was my medicine and my disease at the same time.

The illness that can’t be healed by anything else except her.

It was very fucking weird at the beginning to prevent myself from touching her. Being erected and getting a bony inside your pants because of your little sister was a freaking bad thing.

But she never noticed and I made my best to stop myself and to be more controllable over my body. I admitted that I succeeded in that mission but I failed in something else and it was clear and obvious to the blind that I was overprotective and possessive on her.

Yes, I couldn't let her date any guy. I just felt so jealous of watching her talking to a guy. I couldn’t imagine her losing her virginity or making sex with anyone.

I was making my guards follow her everywhere, every single day. Step by step to know what she was doing. And that wasn’t the problem.

The problem was that I couldn’t imagine my life without her and I was losing my temper all the time because of her. Yes, I became sick with her love.

She’s the most beautiful girl in this universe and that not because she’s my sister. But it was just the fact. Once she steps into any place all the eyes instantly turn into her.

Yes, I was handsome, elegant , famous and rich. But she was simply adorably sexy and hot. She didn’t need to wear makeup on her face. She didn’t need to wear sexy dresses to attract the eyes.

Even girls and women wanted her!

The girl is simply a precious flower like a treasure everyone wants a piece of her.

But I didn’t and I wouldn’t let anyone touch her. I would be fucking kill him boldly without regret. She was mine. Even so, I knew very well that she can’t be mine because I’m her older brother. But I was deeply in love with her and falling head over heels to her love.

All she needed to do was just snapping by her fingers and I would make her wish come true in a blink of an eye. Anything and everything. I did my efforts to make her happy and smile.

Her smile gives me the light and hope.

I can’t deny that she makes me lose my temper sometimes and sometimes I yell at her or punish her but at the end, I rush to her room and hug her and give her a gift or I do apologize. I just couldn’t bear watching her cry or angry or mad at me.

I wished that she could know what I was doing for her. But she insisted on bothering me more and more. Dating idiot guys, introducing them to me. And fucking my head with that.

I knew and I feel that she loves me so much. I’m not a total jerk. But honestly, I can’t do the incest. She's my sister! I can’t be with her. I wish she could know how much I love her. I love her more than she loves me.

But I made a strict line to myself to not allow myself to drown in my sins. I decided to get married lately to stop her hopes.

I know that my love for her is endless and that it will never stop and no other woman could spot Sherry spot in my heart because Sherry already took all my heart with all my valves and every corner in my body.

I tried to fall or even get attracted to other girls but nothing. Always failed in this mission.

That's’ why I decided to be responsible. Sherry will eventually forget about me. I knew that she would fall for another guy if I just gave her space and freedom to date any guy.

But seriously I didn’t see her with anyone who deserves her yet. I just wanted to hear the best ever. They were all after her money or even after making a business connection with me. No one of them was good to be with.

Even so that she was dating a lot of guys, but she kept herself clean. I knew that she was teasing me all the time to get noticed by me. But I wish I could tell her that I do love her and that her ways won’t go anyway with me. It was my own decision to keep the distance between us as sister and brother.

So, I chose one of the best ladies to be my wife. She won’t be able to be better than Sherry. Because Sherry to me was the best ever. But she was the best lady to hold my name. To be my wife. She was already well known in the business field of steel. She was smart and there was no age gap between us. She was thirty years old and I was thirty-two. So we apparently suit each other for business and being famous and the age.

The only problem was that Emma wasn’t Sherry! I wanted Sherry and only her.

But that wasn’t something I could buy with my money. She was my sister and I just wanted to resist her love with all my strength.

I thought I won this battle of love. But I guess I was wrong this time. I guess love can’t be resisted. It's like the wave of the sea when it gets higher no surfer could ride her. Just going with the flow and you will drown inside the water.

I asked Emma not to propose a type of marriage but we just discussed our relationship together from the business theory and it would be practical for people to be partners in life and business. She accepted that offer because she was already in love with me.

And that was it, all I needed to do, to prepare a huge party in my palace and invite all the businessmen in the country and my best friends starting from the mayors and the ministers to the most important person in my life ‘Sherry’

I couldn’t tell her the reason after this party. I didn’t find my gut and simply I didn’t dare to see her reaction and her tears. Or maybe I was afraid that she might confess her love to me.

I wonder if she did what I will do?!

But— it was still hoped with only one percent inside me that I was imagining that Sherry loves me more than elder brother.

This time I was just hoping I was wrong because it will be much easier for me to just bury my feelings inside my chest deeply and never talk again.

But— the party began and Sherry didn’t show up at all. I was waiting and delaying the announcement of my marriage to Emma.

Waiting until Sherry stepped inside with her self-ego linking her arm to a handsome tall guy in a very expensive tuxedo.

I couldn’t bear or suppress my anger.

And that's’ why I decided to throw the bomb of my engagement instantly in her face. I faked a smile to cover how angry I was. I pulled the mic and I stood up wrapping my arm around Emma's waist “Hello everyone, we are here tonight to tell you that— I and Emma are getting married soon and from now we are engaged.” I said plainly.

Sherry dropped her jaw, losing the ability to come over to us even to say congratulations brother.

But I glanced at her and waved to her to come to me. She slowly pulled her date's hands and widened her eyes “is that a joke?” She asked me ignoring all what I just said.

Emma chuckled lightly “hello Sherry, no. We are engaged now. Look at the five-carat diamond ring in my finger.” Emma raised her hand to show her diamond ring to Sherry.

But hello, here it comes my rude Sherry. Sherry snapped Emma hand away and raised her brow to me “and you bought her a diamond engagement ring?! Why didn't you ask me or tell me earlier?!” Sherry's voice was getting higher.

I shot Sherry with death glares only to be retorted by her angrier tone “I do reject this marriage!” Sherry yelled.

I pulled Sherry arm squeezing her arm in front of her boyfriend and Emma “don’t fucking yell at my face ever! Don’t dare to raise your voice.” I warned her sternly, clenching my teeth.

Sherry gazed at me tight grip and released her arm from my tight grip and smirked competitively “okay brother, congratulations. Let me introduce to you Derek, he is my boyfriend and—.” Sherry raised an eyebrow and trailed off “soon to be my fiancé.” She wrapped her arms around Derek's neck who was widely smiling excitedly.

I shouted “What the fuck! Who fucking said so?” I pushed Derek away from Sherry.

Emma stood in the middle calming me down “what’s wrong with you Esteban? Everyone is looking at both of you. You could discuss this family matter later in private. Not at our engagement party.” Emma made me pay attention to how the others were looking towards us.

I rounded my fist angrily, curing my anger and nodded but I pointed my finger to Sherry's nose “just for now! Because I have no intention to ruin my engagement party.”

Sherry wavered her brows up and down to me “oh yes, listen to your fiancé wise words. Now if you could excuse me. My boyfriend and I want to dance.” She teasingly said and dragged her idiot boyfriend to the middle of the dance floor.

To be honest, the guy looked so nice and rich. He didn’t look to me as someone who knew Sherry for her money. But— I just couldn’t bear the jealousy feeling.

I calmed myself to control myself and just let it go for now. I pulled Emma to the dance floor and we started to dance to the music that was played with the professional pianist.

Until Sherry stepped to the pianist and whispered something to the musician then she held the mic. And snapped to all the guys to pay attention to her “excuse me, everyone. I just want to sing a song for my boyfriend. Could you please let me sing.”? She said with a little chuckle. She was angry I can tell from her facial expressions. I raised her as my daughter. I could feel how she was so mad at me. How she did her best to control her emotions.

Her voice was just charming, making my heartbeats get higher. I loved her voice. I always did.

But till that point, I was just hoping that she was angry because I didn’t tell her earlier about my engagement that's all.

She started to sing a love song and that made me sure that she wasn’t singing for Derek. That song was definitely for me. Because she knew that I love thin songs so much. It was my favorite song and she was always singing this one to me. But I never tell her why I loved this song. Because it reminded me of her. It describes how much love I hold for her. She owns my soul, my mind and all of my heart even if my eyes were only on her. Everything in my life was about her and revolving around her.

She started singing.

Said I loved you but I lied

Because this is more than love I feel inside

Said I loved you but I was wrong

Cause love could never ever feel so strong

Said I loved you but I lied.

With all my soul I’ve tried in vain

How can my mere words explain my heart?

This taste of heaven so deep so true

I have found in you.

So many reasons in so many ways my life just began—

Yeah— Need you forever,

I need you to stay in. You are the one. You are the one.

— finally, she ended her song. But she was deeply sinking in her song sealing her eyes. Once she finished she glanced at me. That ached my heart. I lost the ability to find a word. I just wanted to hug her and tell her how much I love her.

But she goes crazy when her jealousy is up. She rushed to Derek and kissed him on his lips longingly and that feeling killed me. As if she stabbed me in my heart with a knife. As if she squeezed my heart. I could see the pain in her eyes. I could see the tears that were falling on her cheeks.

But all I have done was something not understandable at all. I couldn’t think twice. I just stormed into both of them and pushed him away from her. I punched him in his face “get the fuck off my house now!” I shouted at her pushing him in his chest roughly. I guess I broke his nose because I noticed some blood. Or maybe I broke one of his teeth! I didn't give a shit for him.

He cleared his throat and trembled “Mr. Esteban, I do love her. I didn’t do anything wrong. She is my girlfriend and as she said earlier, I would love to marry her. I could propose to her now if you let me do it.”

The more he was saying he loves her, the more t=I was losing my temper.

I gritted my teeth and ignored his words “get the fuck out of my house and don’t come near my sister ever again.” I shouted, threatening him bluntly.

He stormed off instantly, but Sherry yelled at me “how could you do this? He is my boyfriend and I will marry him even if you reject me.”

And my hand found her way to Sherry cheeks with the roughest slap ever. She stared at me shockingly and her tears rolled down immediately on her cheeks “what are you doing?” She barely said in a whisper tone.

She was shocked and even me, I didn't know that it will be a heavy pain in my chest to accept that Sherry will soon be the wife of someone else. Okay, I lied to myself when I tried to convince myself that everything will be fine.

But— She's mine, why does it feel so right and wrong at the same time?!

I dragged her inside the house forgetting about all the guests and my fiancé. She didn’t resist. She just strode with me silently until we climbed up to her room. I slammed the door behind us and pinned her to the wall “you will never date him! Got that! I will choose the right one for you.” But— she pulled me from my collar and pressed her lips into mine passionately. I lost control over my body and kissed her deeply, letting my right hand pull her neck closer to me and my mouth thrusting into her mouth playfully.

I pulled myself immediately when I figured out the disaster I had caused. I pushed her away from me, throwing her up and down. I clutched my hair madly “what the fuck have you done?” I shouted.

She screamed “I’m so fucking in love with you! I won’t let this bitch take you from me ever.”