Sherry

I rotated looking at myself in the long mirror in Jack's beauty salon and I couldn’t suppress my screams and be praising jack “wow jack! I look adorable! Thanks, sweetie for your help. That’s why I love you.” I chuckled and winked at Jack.

Jack whistled “you look like a princess; Esteban won’t turn his eyes away from you. I am sure of that.”

I made a puppy face “oh, do you think so? I don’t know why he can’t see me like a lady? He just likes others but not me. I wish he would notice me. Only for once.” I sighed.

Jack came closer to me and hugged me, pressing his lips to my cheeks to comfort my dead soul. “Honey, this is not easy for any man to notice his little sister. Don’t blame him. Maybe he knows very well how gorgeous you are. But he can’t see you more than a sister.” He explained to me and well yeah, this is the truth and I do understand that.

But hell no, I know this is against human nature and I can’t fall in love with my brother. But come on in the ancient eras, the king got married to their own sisters. Then why not me?!

These are the rules that our governments and religions strictly make. Oh, I do believe in god! But—

I believe in love as well. And if God thinks that falling in love with my brother is something forbidden and called incest then why I’ falling deeply in love with my brother Esteban?

I need an answer even so I know that I will never care and will never be convinced. Maybe I’m such a pushy and crazy girl because I do convince myself that I will make him mine. I know that we do have a borderline and I can’t just make a jump and smash those lines. But what can I do to my sick heart?

I need medicine and my only medicine is to be with my Esteban. He is my addiction!

No other woman will love him or appreciate him more than me ever.

He is the air I breathe. He is my sun that lights my day. He is the moon that gives glitter in the darkest night. He is my motivation and my inspiration. He is simply and directly my everything in this life.

If I lose him then I will lose myself. I will kill myself to end my miserable life.

I love him more than he could even imagine. I know he will never imagine that I do love him as my lover, not as my elder brother. But how he can’t see my emotions and my burning skin whenever I touch him?!

Is he this blind?

I have to do something to make him mine and that’s why I and jack were working for years to bring my Esteban between my arms.

Well, he didn’t notice me till now. And sometimes I thought about telling him and confessing my real feelings towards him but Jack stopped me from this step.

He was right and I think if I confessed my love to Esteban he might kick me out of his life forever. And I know he won’t do something harsh to me like this but he might just stay away from my way. And make new rules with new borders.

Which is so weird sometimes and gives me slight hope is how Esteban reacts to my actions or how he is too possessive of me.

He really hated how I pretended to hang out with my friends. That just gives me a sign of how jealous he is when it comes to me.

But it could be simply the love between the sister and the brother. Yes, he raised me since I was just twelve years old. So, he could be just called a protective brother, nothing more.

I just hope my plan this time might be successful.

Jack snapped to me to come back from my space out “hey, girl, wake up. We still need to dress you up. Show me how you look at your sexy dress. And let’s go. You don’t want to arrive too late.” Jack pulled me from my hand to the dressing room.

I wore my dress and my high heels then I stepped outside showing him my sexy body “so, what do you think?” I ruffled my hair egotistically.

He smiled widely “well, I think you might pass with that.” He smirked and teased me.

I dropped my jaw “just pass? I hate you jack for ruining my mood.”

He chuckled and pulled my hand “baby, I was just kidding with you. Hundred percent you will win this time. Just hoping your boyfriend will be as gorgeous as you.”

I nodded “yes I hope so, but to be honest I think Derek is more handsome than Esteban.”

Jack widened his eyes “oh, are you falling or what? Then if you did think that your new boyfriend is better than Esteban, why don’t you be with him and forget about Esteban then?” He asked me in curiosity.

Part of his question is sort of right. I did ask myself this question before.

But the answer was simple. My heart wants Esteban. Love was never about beauty or handsomeness. Its souls collide and decide to make a bond together forever.

Esteban was different, everything about him makes me love him more and yearn for him more. But any other guy can’t be compared to him.

I tried hard to fall with other guys. Actually, they were all perfect but— maybe my heart wanted the imperfect man.

He is a man, not a superficial unexpressed guy. That’s the difference between him and my new boyfriend Derek.

Derek is just a rich guy who was obviously an idiot. Silly, and superficial dumbass.

I just want my baby.

I sighed and placed my hand over my chest in the side of my heart “I love Esteban no one could take his place in my heart ever. So now, let me call my idiot boyfriend.” I said to jack.

He nodded and I grabbed my cell phone “Derek, where are you now?” I called Derek who answered from the first ring as if he was waiting for my call.

“Darling I’m on my way to your house. Do you want me to meet you anywhere and drive you?” Derek asked me.

“no, just wait for me outside the gate of my house. Don’t step inside without me. I need to surprise my brother.” I informed Derek.

“Okay sweetie, as you like. Don’t be late. I already missed you so much. Love you baby.” Derek said to me.

I hate his kinky attitude. Fuck that guy annoys me so much. Or maybe because I just don’t love him!

I don’t know but all I know now that I want to go and ruin Esteban's party and make him jealous.

I wonder what Esteban will do after seeing me with a new sexy boyfriend.

Yes, that will be so funny as hell.

Head over heels I will turn this party upside down. I feel as if something terrible will happen tonight.

Please God, be with me.

I hang up the call with Derek without saying goodbye to him.

He got used to my nasty attitude towards him. I guess he is kind of sub or something because he likes my harsh attitude with him. He likes to be insulted by me. I don’t know why?! He is just weird.

The opposite of Esteban's character. Esteban simply could beat the hell up of me if I yelled at him.

Actually, he didn’t beat me before. He shouted and yelled and insulted me when I went further with my bad attitude.

But— at the same time, Esteban is so kind and tender with me.

They do say when you love someone you will like everything he is doing to you. You will forgive him for everything.

And I think I do—

I raised my head “let’s go, Jack. Derek is waiting for us.”

We stepped out of the beauty salon to my car “let’s go now.” I hopped into my car and rolled the window of my car. Jack was still waiting to play with his car key in his hands.

“what? You have said that you will come with me!” I raised my brow to jack.

Jack shook his head and stared with unstable eyes as if he was in the middle of deep thinking “listen, you should go by yourself tonight.” He said normally.

I narrowed my eyes and opened the door of my car and placed my both hands over his shoulders “jack! Why? Why have you changed your mind out of the blue? I need you tonight to be by my side. Please.” I worriedly informed him making a pout by my lips pleading to him.

He shrugged his shoulders and shook his head in disagreeing “actually I have an instinct that something huge will happen tonight. That’s why I think you should go along with Derek. You will need to be alone, trust me. All I can see now in front of my eyes is a very sexy lady that will make every man in this party drool over her breathtaking beauty. Trust me.” He explained to me. To be honest I didn’t get the point.

But I did respect his wish and moreover, I do believe in his instinct. He intensely stares at me “just go now and be confident. Just drink a little tequila and you will be okay.” He tapped over my head.

I nodded and smiled “I promise; I will win tonight. Wish me luck jack.” I said to Jack and he pushed me to get into my car.

I started up my car and drove fast with higher heartbeats that made me speed up even more. I was worried to know what’s going on tonight.

But even more, I do live with Esteban under the same ceiling but I can’t deny that I missed him so much. He is always busy and I do rarely see him.

What makes me more relieved is that he keeps calling me every day more than ten times to ask about me and about what I am doing in my day. And my college.

He never forgot about me even when he travels away in business or something.

He always does his best to sleep at night in the house. He always keeps his eyes on me as he always says, ‘I’m leaving my best guards and my best men and assistants around you everywhere. I can’t let my heart get hurt.’ Yes, he says I’m his heart and he is living happily just because he is doing his best to make me happy.

He always says that he loves me more than any other woman more than his money more than himself.

But even though he still didn’t feel how much I do love him.

I halted the car with a high screech in front of the gate and I searched by my eyes for Derek but I didn’t spot him anywhere. I grabbed my cell phone from my purse to call him.

He yes, did it again. Answered from the first ring “Derek! Where are you?” I groaned annoyed and told him to be there on time. We were late.

Yes, I wanted to get inside late but not that late. Not after the party is finished, that will be stupidity from me and my mission for tonight will be destroyed.

I didn’t turn over myself from my makeup to my sexy dress and these expensive high heels to lose!

This would be a waste. Not for a time but for my desire and my hidden emotions.

I just want to see Esteban mad!

“Honey, I’m over here next to you,” Derek said on the cell phone. I turned my eyes around to see him parking On the opposite side of my house. I waved to him to follow me by his car inside.

I rolled the window of my car down "open up the gates now. And the car behind me is with me. Allow him to come inside.” I commanded the security of our house.

He leaned closer and whispered with a trembling tone after checking the car behind me “miss, but— MR Esteban was clearly strict about not letting any stranger come inside this party without an invitation.” He was sneakingly telling me.

Yes, my brother is like a monster in the shape and the body for a sexy successful businessman. Everyone feared him and that was the nicer thing.

Because that man is like a ring in my finger. Not to that degree. But he never tries to make me sad. He never makes me sleep with tears on my cheeks. He always did his best to make me feel good.

I raised an eyebrow “he is my guest. I will tell Esteban.” I said firmly to the guard.

He cleared his throat “Miss Sherry, excuse me but could you please tell Mr. Esteban first and ask him to inform me of those words by his own mouth. You know how Mr. Esteban is stern about—” the guard was explaining to me.

I yelled “I said he is my guest; can’t you hear me. If you didn’t allow him to go inside now. I will make sure to tell my brother to fire you.” I threatened him.

And yes, even so— I was worse than my brother. Because if Esteban decided to fire this poor guard and I asked him to not fire him, he will accept.

But if I asked my brother to fire him even if that guard didn’t do anything wrong, my brother would fire him immediately.

Yes, I do always break the rules and Esteban always makes my wishes come true.

But for now, I just wish for only one thing. My Esteban to be mine.

The guard nodded and bowed his head respectfully to me “yes, sure miss Sherry. Just please don’t let Mr. Esteban fire me.” He pleaded with a broken voice tone.

I chuckled and nodded assuring him “sure he won’t thank you.”

I thanked the guard and then waved to Derek to follow me, we parked our cars next to each other. There were a lot of fancy cars inside. Sure, my brother's best friends were ministers and the wealthiest businessmen in the country.

Derek followed me. He got out of the car staring in awe from our house “wow! Just wow, this is huge.” He praised our house.

I slammed the door of my car and smirked “yes, sure. Welcome to our house.” The idiot guy didn’t even notice how I look and he didn’t praise my dress or my hair cut or my makeup! As if said he was craving eagerly to meet my brother.

Even him, even everyone I meet or date, everyone wants a piece of my brother and to be just next to him! Yes, my brother is too famous and popular. I knew that fact and that what I hate more about Esteban.

I just wanted him to be mine and only mine. That's why I do my best to push away every woman who comes into Esteban life.

Even though I had asked him a million times if he is going to get married soon or not and even so he used to repeat only one answer that he is living just for me.

But— I had that worry that sooner or later he will get bored from living as a single man forever. He will try to find a woman for him.

Every man wants a woman by his side, every man will need children, will need his own small family.

I knew that Esteban can’t live only for his sister! That would be crazy!

I linked my arms to Derek “stop glaring at our house!” I sulked and huffed.

He opened his mouth “this is not a house! This is a palace! For god sake, I do envy you.”

I rolled my eyes at his words “envy me for being rich! You are fucking rich as well as me?!” I commented annoyed.

He shook his head and smiled awkwardly pulling me to his chest “no, I mean for having a nice big house and a very handsome rich brother!”

I furrowed my brows “what’s going on with you? Do you like my brother Esteban? Are you gay and using me as a bridge to reach my brother?!” I pushed his chest making him stumble a bit.

He laughed hysterically almost falling down “no, of course, I’m not. I just want to meet him to get to know him well and maybe I will make some business with him after graduation from college. You know that my father is a businessman but I want to be on my own. I don’t want to use my father’s connections.” He explained to me but whatever he tried to say, he didn’t convince me at all.

That’s why I was terribly sure that tonight will be his last night with me as a boyfriend. I will kick him forever out of my life. I hate when someone uses me and moreover when someone tries to use my darling brother.

I faked a yellow smile “just shut the fuck off and don’t waste more time. Let’s go inside and let you meet my brother.” I strode inside confidently and slowly swaying my hips right and left. I just insulted him and even so, Derek just smiled from ear to ear as if I was telling him how handsome he is!

Once we showed up to the pool party with all the lights turning into us, once my heart dropped down into my feet. I didn’t imagine that I would see Esteban holding hands with a sexy lady in front of all the guests! And what’s more! There were a lot of reporters.

Okay! What’s going on here for fuck sake?!