Esteban

I couldn’t just listen to her words. She wrapped me from my neck showering my neck and my face with too many kisses. I was swooning in between her touch and her kisses. I was hoping to hear those words from the one I love.

But— Not from my sister! This is insanely wrong. I can’t do this.

If our parents were alive they wouldn’t accept something like this ever. They would be ashamed and disown us immediately.

I pushed her away “get off me now! Are you insane! What are you doing Sherry, come back to your senses? I’m your elder brother.” I avoided eye contact with her. I couldn’t let her see much love in my eyelids.

What if she could hear my heart beats that were drumming higher?

What if she could feel the shiver in my touch?

What if she could feel the coldness that mixed with blaming and regret and fear in my hands?!

I tried to walk away from her and shouted: “Are you drunk?”

I shook my head in disbelief only to hear her sobbing with a trembling tone “I do love you as a man and woman, not as brother and sister. Why can’t you feel the pain in my heart? Why can’t you see the love in my eyes” she stepped closer from me and pulled me from my collar to look directly into her eyes and all I could see at that moment was red eyes blinded by tears.

I exhaled and inhaled loudly trying to breathe normally and act more strongly in front of her “this is wrong Sherry; you are my little sister. Are you even conscious?” I glared at her.

The truth that I didn’t want her to stop. I didn’t want to be stopped either. But I couldn’t go further anymore.

I just decided to run away from her. I couldn’t know what I should do next. But I just wanted to not face her now. And at the same time, I should go back to my guests and Emma, my fiancé. Or they will start gossiping.

No one will ever come into his mind there’s anything between me and my sister. But they might think she’s against my engagement that’s all.

I hastened to open the door but Sherry tried to stop me and clutched in my jacket “please Esteban, I do love you. Listen to your heart. I will die without you. I can’t love anyone else except you.” She said in a begging tone.

I pushed her hand away and stormed off her room hurriedly downstairs. I was choked by losing the ability to breathe. My eyes were filled with tears but I blocked them.

I blew a deep breath away and drew a fake smile over my face to hide everything.

Once I went back to the pool, Emma came closer to me asking me with worried eyes “are you okay? Where’s Sherry?”

I huffed “I locked her inside her room. I just can’t believe that she wants to get married to this jerk!” I lied covering my worries.

Emma nodded and cupped my cheeks with her hands “baby, if she loves him then you should give both of them a chance. That’s her own life.”

I frowned “that’s not her own life! I’m her older brother!” I squealed.

Emma shook her head in disbelief from my reactions “don’t you think that you overprotect her?! She is not young anymore. Obviously, she’s a lady! She has all the right to date whoever she wants. And I think she’s acting weirdly as well.”

I gulped nervously. What did she mean by Sherry acting weirdly?!

Does it mean she discovered anything?!

No that can’t happen! That will be a disaster!

I narrowed my eyes “what do you mean?”

She moved her fingers to my lips seductively “she’s too jealous of you! As if you were her husband.”

I choked from her words and coughed “what the fuck are you talking about Emma? Are you losing your mind!” I groaned making Emma startle in her place a bit from my facial expressions.

She stuttered “I _I didn’t mean that. I mean she’s too attached to you.” She paused and trailed off "actually I do the same with my father. I know that is normal. But I think she should find her own life and start with a guy. She can't live with you forever. And we are getting married soon and—" I cut off her.

I blurted out “that’s normal, I’m her father and her mother and her brother! I’m her all life and only one left for her.” I explained and I didn’t lie about this part. Actually, that was the truth.

About our relatives, we don’t have any! I don’t know why or how. But our grandfathers died years ago and my mother and my father used to be a lonely child. We didn’t meet any of the other relatives as well since our parents died.

I don’t even remember any of them.

That’s why I wasn’t sure about Sherry's feelings towards me. Maybe she was just subconsciously afraid to lose me that's why she imagined that she is in love with me. But maybe that was just strings attaching me and her that’s all.

Emma was getting curious and bored and she started to bombard me with a question which I hate most especially when it comes to my Sherry and me.

I just diverted the subject by leaning closer and pulling her into a long kiss.

Did I feel something?!

Hell no!

It tasted like a poison to me. The taste was awful to me. I know that Emma is beautiful and sexy and moreover she was a very successful businesswoman compared to her young age. I always got attracted to smart women and in bed, she was so experienced she knew how to satisfy me. Even so, I do love Sherry with all my heart but as a man, I needed to fill my desires. I needed a woman. I just couldn't be in a serious relationship before. I was just sleeping with them for a night or two then kicked them out of my life politely.

I do not and never made sex with whores. So, I couldn't be rude and harsh with any. But it just failed and I tried to forget about Sherry and me. But nothing changed anything. I even fell harder for Sherry with every time I fuck a new woman.

Fuck me! I just realized now how much I crave for Sherry. How much I love her. Her scent and her touch over my skin and her lips over mine!

That was something for sure. I just couldn’t forget that kiss, even so, it didn’t last for long. But it still stuck in my mind.

I got almost paralyzed in my place when I heard a gasp, I pulled myself away from Emma to take a look and only to see Sherry gazing at me with eyes full of blaming and regret.

I wanted to tell her the truth. That I was just pretending but I couldn’t discuss or explain anything.

Why? Because she wasn’t my girlfriend! She was my sister. Why should anyone explain to his sister why she kissed his fiancée?! That will be too strange.

Especially with all those guests surrounding us.

But my heart pounded loudly and painfully. I was just speechless as if my tongue was ripped off. I was glaring at Sherry with so much sorry in between my looks.

Sherry inhaled and exhaled loudly then she shook her head in disbelief and just ran away.

I stuck my eyes on her back to see where she was going, I thought that Sherry will just go back to her room and lock herself inside. But no, she hopped inside her car and in a flash of light, she was gone from my sight.

I couldn’t wait anymore; I didn’t know what I should do or what she was going to do to herself.

I placed my arms over Emma shoulders “baby, I should go and find Sherry now. Could you please handle the guests?” I asked Emma politely hoping that she could understand my complicated situation.

And thank god that Emma knows very well how much I love my sister. Of course, she didn’t know about my little secret about Sherry.

But Emma and everyone in my life, even my business partners, just knew how much I’m so caring about my sister and I could drop a deal of business just to be next to her.

I gestured to my personal assistant to come over “tell me where’s Sherry?” I asked him.

He nodded and made a call to my men that was supposed to be Sherry's personal follower ‘undercover bodyguard’ that Sherry didn’t know about.

Then my personal assistant turned his head to me “sir, he couldn’t follow her. He said she was driving so fast and suddenly she was out of his path.”

Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I rounded my fist angrily then I dash off to my car, I start up the car “get the hell inside the car now and find for me where I could find this Derek house.” I commanded my personal assistant.

I swear to god if I found Sherry with Derek in bed or something, I would crash his fucking head and cut his dick! No one is allowed to touch what is mine. And Sherry is mine. I know I'm acting selfishly but till I could be stronger and resist her love till then no one will touch her and I would make sure from that.

And in a few minutes, my personal assistant found out after making a few calls. Obviously, that guy called Derek just published a few pictures of being here in my palace with my sister and me.

Obviously, I got a wrong impression of him, that Derek was so happy about meeting me. He wanted to get famous by dating my sister.

How idiot he is! She is the most beautiful and kind girl ever. Why would a rich guy care about meeting me more than being in love with a gorgeous girl like Sherry?! I couldn't understand why they all kept doing this.

“Sir, he is Derek Zeal!” My personal assistant said dumbfounded.

I furrowed my brows “Zeal?! There’s only one Zeal! Zeal steel? Our Zeal?” I asked my personal assistant.

He nodded “yes, I guess he is. We should go now. Let me drive for you.”

I shook my head “no, I will drive. I need to find Sherry so soon. Just make a call to Zeal and tell him that we are coming to his mansion now.” I commanded him.

And he was my best assistant ever. Actually, he used to be my father's assistant as well. He was kind of old but smart and such a helpful hand for me. He was my secret lover but for sure not for Sherry!

I have never got the courage to tell anyone. Except for only one ‘jack’ , her best friend. And that was by an incident when he decided to inform me about Sherry's feelings towards me.

God Jack cares about Sherry so much. And that was the only guy actually that I trusted him to be with Sherry. Not because he was gay, but because he really treats her as his own sister or daughter. He is a very good guy actually.

But Sherry didn’t know about that incident and since then I and Jack keep contacting each other if Sherry was in some dangerous situation or something or to ask him about her mood or her new boyfriends.

He kept my little secret although he asked me to consider my decision about not telling Sherry about my feelings towards her.

I grabbed my cell phone calling Sherry several times, I wanted her to pick my calls and to tell me where she had gone. But obviously, she did that to make me worry.

She turned off her cell phone. And I increased the car speed as if I was driving a plane. Thank god that I do know where Zeal lives. He invited me before to one of his parties. I didn’t attend because I'm not a very social person and I don’t like chatting with people and faking a smile.

I do attend only business deals or parties of some charity parties. Yes, just the important things. Even the birthday thing, I didn’t like that. Only Sherry's birthday was the most important for me. Every year I used to give her a special party and perfect gifts.

And she used to give me the best surprise party for me as well on my birthday.

She used?! I used?!

What the hell am I saying to myself now? She will be fine. She should be fine for me. I can’t live without her. I will simply die in the same minute if I lost her.

I halted the car in front of the Zeal gate. My personal assistant called Zeal again but the Zeal cellphone was still off.

I clenched my teeth and shouted at the security guard “open the fucking gate now.” Simply I couldn't understand how and why he did that. Maybe he got scared of me. I know and everyone keeps talking about how scary I look when I lose my temper.

I didn’t give a shit. I parked my car and barged into Mr Zeal mansion yelling his name “Zeal! Zeal.” I was roaming around in circles like insane trying to spot my sister or Derek.