Angel :

I was sticking around waiting for Shawn until he came back home. strolling back and forth in the living room restlessly in a whirling. I was so anguished and fretted. I know his rotten and lousy attitude. This was going to be an inferno. So I decided to take a lukewarm shower and deluge my body in the tub and wait for him.

I even put a nonsensical plan to seduce him. Maybe that might make him forget about my mistake and that I misbehaved and disobeyed his orders and his rules.

I took a shower and splashed his favorite perfume on all of my body. I decided to wear a lilac french babydoll and I walked downstairs to the kitchen to prepare a good decent meal for him. As for cooking, I was so talented. We do have a housemaid and a chef. But both of them are women. But once I arrived home today the first thing I did was give them the rest of the day off.

Because when Shawn comes mad. He forgets about people and the crowds around us. I started to cook his favorite dish chicken grill with white pasta sauce. And I baked a chocolate brownie — I put them on the dining table. I switched the lights off and I lit up some candles and put them in the middle of the table. Yeah, I wanted to make it a romantic night.

Once I finished— I heard Shawn opening the door with his keys. He sculptured his eyes peering around the house with wide eyes. Then he slammed the door with his legs.

His heavy sharp footsteps hammered the floor. I could see the exasperation in his eyelids. He strode close from me. I cleared my larynx scared to death.

"Where's the servant and the chef?" he roared.

"Um, I_ I sent them out for tonight!" I stammered in a breathless way, I was trying to contain myself but it was hard under his death gazes.

"And how you could do something like that without getting my permission? I could tell that you have changed a lot Angel and that you started to make a few decisions without waiting for my approval!" Shawn hiked an eyebrow and said in a graving tone.

"Um, it's not like that. It's just— "I was stuttering trailing aside from him. Stepping back on my tiptoes as if  I was going to run away. His gaze was scorching me. I was so timid and scared to death. Almost my heart skipped a few beats, I was sweating and shivering.

He came close to me and threw me to the couch. I gasped. And he suddenly started to take off his waistline belt. I expected that he was going to whack me and batter me. I sealed my eyes surrender to my destiny "please Shawn don't beat me." My tone was barely coming out of my mouth and was limited and stagnant. My heart pulses were hastening up. I wished that the ground opened up and swallowed Shawn at that moment. Or someone could help but I knew that no one would dare to step one more step even if we were in a public place. Shawn wasn’t the guy to mess up with. He was a dangerously tough and powerful man. Simply the quote ‘money talks’ was written for him.

Suddenly I freed my eyes to peek. Shawn was taking off his shirt and jumped over me. He grabbed my hair by his hand and pressed his strong grip to my neck with his other hand "Do you think that you can get out of me easily after what you have done?! Do you think that I can forgive you easily! You are mine! I dropped everyone and girls chasing me everywhere just to be with you!" He squawked.

I squirmed under his strong heavy body and almost lost the ability to breathe. He was choking me tightly.

He noticed that my eyes popped out and I was hardly breathing so he pulled his hand away from my neck and came close from my earlobe whispering "what happened to you, Angel. Don't you remember what I did for your sake? Don't you remember how many times I shielded and rescued you ?! Don't you remember when those guys—" Shawn didn't continue. He knows that mishap that happened to me during my last year at high school makes me grieve and weep over and over again. But it was the accident that made him confident and certain that he loves me so much.

My vision blurs dim, my eyes filled with tears and started to fall on my cheeks. He clenched his teeth and then leaned and he hugged me tightly. "I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to be humble and hurt you deeply or mar your feelings with my fucking tongue. It was just a slip. Please don't cry. You know how much I love you and treasure you." Shawn wiped my tears with his hands.

Yeah, he was a bipolar man, with a singing mood from tough and harsh to sweet and tender in a few seconds.

He trailed off to explain to me “I love you, Angel,” he sighed, showering my neck with kisses.

I pushed him slightly away from me "I'm sorry, it's just I want to have some freedom and flexibility. I'm afraid that I might hate you for locking and shutting me in the house most of the time. That's why I searched for a job. I want to breathe Shawn. I will never betray you, why can't you trust me? We have been together for 4 years." I said with my gentle sweet voice. Hoping that he might understand my point this time and soften a bit.

Shawn kissed my forehead tenderly and he ran his fingers through my hair and came sitting next to me on the couch.

He pulled me to his chest pressing my head to his chest." it's not that I don't trust you. But I don't trust others. Do you know your influence on others?! No, you don't! Do you know what happened to me when I saw you for the first time in school?! I can't imagine my life without you, Angel," Shawn huskily said as if he was holding a pain in his chest. Then he buried his chin on my neck and granted me a love bite kiss that made me moan like a harlot. Yeah, he knew my sweet spots very well. He was my first man and my only man ever. He taught me everything in bed and even how to kiss. He was the one who took my virginity and I was happy with him at the beginning.

I nodded and shook my head. Shawn spun his head to me "now my pretty wife. What have you prepared for dinner?" Shawn waved his brows up and down teasing me.

He trailed off checking my body by his ashamed eyes " And I can see that you are wearing something to seduce.” Shawn licked the corner of his mouth and said with a mollycoddle voice.

I nudged him gingerly and stretched my body to stand up "no, I was just frightened of you." I pouted my lips and strode to the dining table.

He came along and adhered his body to me and hugged me tightly from my back and kissed my neck "But I want you— Angel, now," he whispered gently licking the back of my ear. I can sense his balmy heated breath fanning my neck.

I pushed him and trod one inch away "No, I don't want you tonight. I hate you when you come mad. You hurt me!" I frowned.

He pulled my arm glaring at me "Sorry for that baby." He made a puppy face.

I  pulled his arm to sit on the chair "Come on Shawn—" I placed my palms on his shoulders giggling.

He widened his eyes beaming at his favorite dishes and then he twirled his head up to me and pulled my hand kissing it "Thank you, sweetheart, for taking care of me. And from my tummy," he smirked, teasing me.

I rolled my eyes and sat on the chair next to him. I started to cut the chicken with the knife and take a slice with the fork to feed him. He freed his mouth eating from my hand with a gigantic smile covering his face.

I know that Shawn loved me so much. But at that moment I was thinking about my CEO. Mr. Paul night and his reputation as a womanizer. He reminded me of Shawn. He used to be a womanizer too before meeting me. I even remembered when Shawn confessed his love and his yearning to me for the first time. I was in a thunderstorm. Shawn's affection for me was strong back then.

But when my eyes spotted  Mr. Paul I felt something different this time. Something weird attracts me to him. Something strong. I hate when Shawn comes mad and angry. But Mr. Paul's serious looks didn't make me afraid; it just warmed me up, turned me on.

What came to my mind at this moment was that I used to be with Shawn and that was not love at all, because if it was real love then why did I feel that weird feeling towards Mr. Paul?!

I was depending on Shawn on everything and living with him. And when I thought that I could break up with him, I realized that was too late and Shawn won't accept that so I accepted my life with him trying to adopt.

Shawn interrupted me and snapped his fingers to my face.

"Hey, Angel, where have you gone with your thoughts! Come to earth!" Shawn frowned asking me in curiosity. Even when I space out Shawn won’t let me do that, he was in my daydreams and my nightmares, he was everywhere I go.

I diverted the subject  "Nothing honey, it's just. Um, I want to ask you a question but you have to promise me that you won't lose your temper!" I stuttered, shivering.

He left the spoon and stared deeply into my eyes "What is it, Angel?"

"What happened to Mr. Paul after I left?" I glanced at Shawn. I couldn’t stare at him, I was afraid that he might think I like Mr. Paul or something.

But do I like that man?!

He furrowed his eyebrows for a second and then he smiled out of the blue "Nothing, he convinced me that he will take care of you. After all, Paul is my partner and I know him well. He is a one-night stand man but he loves the money more than himself. He will never do something stupid and ruin our partnership. So I trust him." Shawn said casually.

I jumped out of happiness and blew a breath of relief "Really? I can work as his assistant?"

"Yes, Angel but don't make anyone come near you and don't talk to any man in this company friendly talk. just business talk and don't give your cell phone number to anyone or I will smash your phone into pieces over your head." Shawn gave me a warning voice. And then he stood up.

Oh, here he goes— and my punishment was going to start.

"By the way Angel, Paul wants you to be in your office at 8 a.m. Don't be late. Paul loves money more than everything in this world, more than his life. And if he bothered you by anyhow just let me know," Shawn informed me in a serious tone.

I ran to Shawn kissing his cheek and I nodded my head excitedly “Thank you, sweetheart."

Shawn leaned his head tight against me "Now, you have to give me a gift, I missed you so much." And by that Shawn dragged me to our room. Throwing me to the bed and taking off all of his clothes.

I cleared my throat gazing at him. God, I knew it. he will pull out all of his anger now in bed. I shivered whispering in my mind when he started to kiss me like a hungry lion didn't eat for more than a month. And that night was so long and rough.